LAST DAY OF PRESENTATION! actually i feel kinda crappy today haah cos the weather so gloomy and quarrelled in the morning with mum...

here's some pics i took.

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ALANIS MORISETTE CROPPED HER LONG LONG LONG SUPER LONG N WAVY HAIR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

now it's like SO DAMN SHORT! O_O;;;;

facing lotsa temptation now....go to parkway isetan end up see this necklace. it's with 3 butterflies in a row downwards and then all glittery diamondish. simple n sweet and $19. not say super expensive but mum says too mature for me. basket end up never buy and regret like mad. shall go back parkway and grab it tml. den turn o'er to the other side saw this earrings very nice also!!!!!!!! mum also think it's nice. then we flip over and check price we nearly choked and puke blood. $69!!!!!!! for a blardi pair of earrings. so freakin expensive. it's pure bronze-coloured with some reallie unique designs no diamond wadsoever duno why so expensive sial... come with a matching necklace somemore surely over a hundred bucks.... sian half
nvm got two temptations cannot buy alreadi pissed off enuff...... go to jurong point to pick up wilfred end up see another bag which is $18 and rather nice.... den a dress which is pale blue and rather sweet. also didn't buy cos wil don't wan to go upstairs and see!!!!! RARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.....

feel like dying..den iman saves the day hahahaha showed me this online website selling jewelleries and i bought 4 sets of earrings for $20~! all very nice one haha too bad no necklace or bracelet i fancy yet.....those that i like are sold out. got one particular bracelet costing $18 is very very sweet coloured pinkish and purplish haiz..... sold out.

sian to hear mum alwaiz complaining about money... recently our family financially abit tight and stupid dad haiz..
later go meet wilfred hee! yesterday still ask me stay over with him haha too bad i cant cos must email something to my
teacher and i onli hav the document at home. been spending gd times with him and he seems to be better each day to
me ^^ am grateful okok i go change clothes. my nagging at me cos we going parkway keke cya

i am graduating soon. i seriously don't know wad to do next. work? den wad job? so lost and confused but wad the heck. live life to the fullest and just enjoy first. haha growing up sux but then again there are things which we cant do till grow up and that's the reality of life and because of the fact that i want to experience those things like marriage with wil and all i have no choice. time doesn't stop for us anyway. wonder wad it'll be like for me perhaps 10 years later...

forgot to mention dat i went with ann and wendy and shai to tampines mall to help wendy scout for presentation shirts and went go century square metro with ann to buy pants haha den she followed me go and buy comic bk piang spent ten bucks.... *sob*

just feel abit suay and "yuan wang" today.

presentation was fine. nothing wrong with the presentation. just some other stuffs. haiz. sometimes when mean well say some stuff to allow people to have room for consideration, come n take my words and misinterpret them and be hostile to me...gimme attitude... ownself bad mood become machiam my fault...vent it on me. wad the fuck can? twice in a day it happen to me. wad wrong did i do? i think nothing. in fact wil tot so too and was v pissed, even say wanna beat the fella. lolz mad lah as if i'll let dat happen. anyway... just sometimes think that when someone's bad mood gets in the way and goes to the extent to hurting others is very selfish. whether or not it is intentional. once or twice in a long while is ok but if it always happen. cannot man. totally pissed off.

today is a hectic day. very nervous during presentation somehow. maybe too long never give presentation abit lost touch. or mebbe just dun like to do opening and closing speech.. nt enuff time to calm dwn. woke up at 7am in the mornin... in sch chiong presentation chiong project submission den chiong prepare for the TWO presentations i have tomorrow... tired like fuck and got home only at about 9.30pm at nite... tired can?

come home get some unexpected replies from wil and end up feeling sad and cried abit. just abit disappointed. u noe how it's like to chiong thro the semester and look forward to the end of the whole thing so dat u can relax and go and hav fun? like hav something to be enthu about and now i felt as if the enthu is gone by half.

wooooooooooooo am still surprised dat there's ppl who's willing to send in their fanarts for my website. i tot the webbie dieded ages ago haha so happy

bwahaha sian kena caught by angelfire again. damn. removed all muh pics ahahaha oh well..

btw tml is the submission for most of my projects. WISH ME LUCK MAN! so tired hahaha for the last 2 days chiong project in sch until 10PM sial.....

kena kick out by lab technicians..

more or less for all the proj we finished a day before hand. tml go sch is to print den we're done!!!!!!

but still gt one more week of presentation (ALAMAK) den FREEEEEEEDOM~~~~~~~~!!!!!!!!!!!!

i just realised i really keep alot of stuff? loads of them are either gifts or collection of my own interests or letters etc etc...
alot man. hahaha sentimental person. i juz cant bear to throw any of them away...

Bonnin Designs

stumbled upon this website and there's quite a number of nice lookin bead accessories!

somehow the net is very slooooooooooooooooooow today.

i was sent on a mission to spy on menswear at parkway. by terry. mission impossible almost. actually is ask me go n die one. half the time i haf to avoid being caught by staffs of isetan and not be thrown out. *sweat drops* all for the project. tutor gimme gd grades

was pretty bored the whole damn day cos nvr go n meet wil cos jere last min tell me we nt meeting haiz haiz bt i shant complain cos for the next few days i'm gonna b bz again. yan ting smsed me to ask if i wanna meet up with her. wanted to but she live in jurong man and even meeting in the central seems tedious to me bwahaha i'm a lazy bum.

was planning for the BBQ i organising for some of my school frenz n outside frenz. hope it'll turn out fine

haha latest project. now i'm re-knitting a newer, bigger, and wider pouch for wil to put his hp cos the previous one hairy already hahaha

today's rain was scary man.... like typhoon sia can see the wind blow the rain until like mad haha whole bg blurred. luckily i was indoor in wilfred's hse hahaha

was havin a toothache earlier on duno why oso. duno whether it's bcos of my wisdom tooth or was it in the afternoon where a food got stuck in my teeth dat made it ache so much.

today wilfred abit machiam eat wrong medicine sia hahahaha v fierce heng not to me but to the staff at novena furniture store in anchorpoint (queensway, opp IKEA).

probably suffering frm withdrawals frm not smokin the whole day so moody haha we were walkin ard anchorpoint and i wanted to go into the furniture store to see if there's anything nice i can get for my rm (plannin for the future). quite a couple of things that's v unique and cute but too damn pricey. then i realised this fat guy trailing us virtually everywhere we go. we turn left, he also turn left. we walk one round the coffee table he also walk one round hahaha pissed off man then i told wil say how come the guy behind keep trailing us. then when i look ard at the staff of novena i realised they wearing same clothes. juz another stupid staff who likes to trail ppl and his trailing skill v irritating hahaha. wad was unexpected tho was wil's temper. after tellin wil the guy trailing us he immediately turn ard and talk to the guy and ask him "may i know why you are trailing us all around the shop!?" at first the fat guy abit stunned so he went "huh?" haha wil was boiling but repeated his qn again. so the fat guy say so that if you nid me for anything i can help u with then wil cut him off and say it's ok we dun nid help at the moment thanks. u can stop trailing us.

wah piang.

wilfred gone mad.

hahhahaha seldom see him hav temper leh at work i think yest oso he say he got angry at one new guy. driver whom everyone in camp dun like cos not onli ugly but tootz and abit of attitude and troublesome cos got accident three times liao. since wil alwaiz schedule time for drivers one, he was merely briefing the driver abt the possible scenarios of him sometimes havin to work mornin shift so wad the driver cud do if the timing is too early (let's say 5.30am), he cud either take a cab or stay in the nite before. think the driver nvr hear properly so he was like "ME!?" and gav mad look and pointed his thumb at himself. wil flared up somehow and slapped the guy's hand instantly and stood up and #%$#^&^ the driver hahahaha his colleagues hav to try to 'calm' him dwn. accord to wil the driver abit stun haha scared oso and stepped back a few times. stupid driver kinda keep wanting to argue back whenever wil talked so a colleague chided him and say when wil talk, dun argue.

think the new driver gonna be sufferin nxt week LOL wil confirm giv him sai gang (shitty jobs) to do. either drive until damn far or drive alot or alot of early shifts.

geez. haha my dad actin like a kid nw. sittin in frnt of the tv sia!!!!!!!!! (actually remote spoil lah)

for some stupid reason my eyes keep swelling up nowadays. second time already and this time it just suddenly swell up and i don't even know why. yesterday i rushed down to orchard, heeren's sakae sushi to meet wilfred and his mum cos they treating me sushi buffet. then when me n wil walked around orchard and about to go back already, at the bus stop wil's eye started to swell. duno why also then until when at home it become so bad he looked like a goldfish. goodness

took this while i was on the bus

haha stumbled upon this site. they make decorating a sims hse so much nicer than those we live in our real life hahaha

Here

yet another monday has arrived. another dreadful day. looking at the school's
massive structure while i walk in, i feel nothing but dread. the word "project"
is closely associated to school making me feel lethargic and limb at the thought
of "school" alone.. i'm tired man.. and i miss him. but persevere i must.. for
just a couple of weeks more and i'll be released from all these! just alittle
more and i can't give up now! no i must not give up.. or three years of my
efforts will be lost. that is too drastic a consequence... terrible to even
imagine about it let alone having it truly happen. must prevent it at all cost.
time is ticking by and day by day in the weeks it flows like water and three
month has just passed by so quickly while we're preparing to enter into the
month of april.. amazing isn't it? life is so strange what seems tediously long
seems tediously fast too.. time pass very quickly when u're sad but it passes as
quickly when you're busy.. nevermind. time for class. *gone*

wow today me n wilfred went down to eng wah cinema in suntec city. the ROCK auditorium crowded like mad sial.... super duper long queue at first me n wil duno wad the heck they queueing for until i see them movin into the auditorium. -__-;; madness sia. there was this very cute little girl hahaha small small one den wilfred like her alot say she v cute hahaha then keep lookin. say next time child must be like her so cute hahaha we bot tix for two to watch Butterfly Effect. MAN! it's a damn gd show, seriously. u guys who havent watch it shld go watch it. me n wil watched it after hearing many gd reviews. TRUST ME! hahahaha shall spare u the spoilers in case u guys wanna watch it haha but nevertheless, it's money well spent even tho we went on a sunday haha pricey man. the movie really keeps you totally concentrated on it man. the plot and storyline, damn cool.

whoo! hahah nw thinkin abt the new hp. S700. wonder hw it reaaally looks like as in size n all. hope it's not a disappointment or something. hur. me n wil walked dwn citilink haha saw lotsa new shops there and in suntec too! in citilink there's this sorta new shop call "Print" very...unique i would say. v nice actually. it's like this shop that sells uniquely self-designed cards and wrapping pprs and journal n stuff and very very pricey but not bad. it's nice and i liked the shop layout haha wil oso say i'll like that kinda shop. den we went into another shop i forgot the name. there's this damn cute designed fridge haha for rms one i think at the most can fit a couple of can drinks inside then there's this other fridge with the shape of a huge football hahahaha oso can fit some drinks inside. for boys to watch soccer and put beer man! haha ultimate guy gadget. then we went to city hall the "market place" and bought some can food back home to cook. i fried an egg again hahaha this time added secret recipe haha and wil liked it! haha cos i found this wine and garlic paste or something so i added it in to create the sweet taste. it's nice! but of cos i added other ingredients into the eggs also lah then we cook rice n stuff and had a simple meal. wil teach me cook rice hahahaha

geez. if by the end of the year i can save up to get this new sony ericsson hp when it launches, i'll be a very happy woman. hahahaha

check it out here. it looks like as if it's a digital cam or mini-pda.

note: this is a flash site.

Sony Ericsson S700


i think i'm becomin an expert in egg frying already.. hahaha counting the number of 'pattern' of eggs i fried for wilfred to eat. scrambled, fried, fried with cheese, add weird ingredients, scambled and mashed... bla bla whoa! hahahaha i seem to be abit mad when i cook the things i like. anyhow cook and eat. spaghetti add egg! didn't taste too gd though hahahaha oxtail soup with spaghetti! abit funny tasting oso... beef chunky with rice! oh dat one is nice hahaha n today's egg is srambled egg with sausages added with milk, sugar, salt and pepper over a small fire and slowly stir and pan fry. whoa result not bad hahahaha

jia lat now start to gian new hp again. heng launch at end of year onli. still gt time find a job to save up enuff cash hahahaha...

I am the number 2 I am friendly _

what number are you?

this quiz by orsa

i alwaiz wonder why on earth i can view ANY of my two blogs in school. stupid school. seem like i cant view ALL blogs even my frens' except sano. hahaha

haiz.... guess my talk with wil over the phone didn't end off very well.... kinda feeling sucky rite nw.... *sigh*

tml will be a better day.. get to meet him n watchin movie on sunday.. am struggling with the stupid financials for my entrepreneurship report... troublesome shit man.

missing him now...

both of us alwaiz so stressed out and tired by our work.... he welcomes dynamic changes and hates routine but i'm a very routined person and hates changes.. sometimes in our r/s there's really alot of things that requires me to get used to... same goes for him... tiring man...

four out of five of my test results are out... did quite ok.

mpc: B
clientp2: B
entrep: B
global m: A

Maria is a steady, responsible and reliable individual who dislikes change for change's sake. She is a solid family person who enjoys tradition, but is inclined to say exactly what she thinks. Such frankness can occasionally land her in trouble. Behind a somewhat ponderous exterior lies a deeply sensitive soul whose core is rarely exposed to public view.

Compassionate and supportive of others, Maria is something of a perfectionist who will find it hard to delegate even routine tasks. Maria is hard-working and good with details, but to get the best out of her, Maria needs to know that in the end her efforts will be properly rewarded and acknowledged.

Believing in her own abilities, Maria's attention to detail will lead her to success through hard work and her own unaided efforts. She can however work well as a member of a team even though she will rarely, if ever, delegate responsibility without stringent conditions.

Comments based on Western Grid

Although Maria is often outgoing and chatty, she can at times be quite introspective. She may not of course see herself as an entertainer, but she nevertheless has all the qualities needed for the stage. She may seem shy on interview, but put her on a platform with an audience, and you will see the benefits that she can bring to any employment that demands such skills.

Sensitive to criticism and naturally intuitive, Maria has a natural ability to detect insincerity in others. Because she is a sensitive soul, Maria can be a solid friend and a good listener. As a result, she will get on well with colleagues, whilst being more than capable of handling office politics.

Imaginative, bright and a little eccentric, Maria likes to be different. She has the potential to be a good writer if she employs her undoubted powers of imagination to works of fiction. Maria may also discover a natural talent for drawing or painting, but skill with words represents the most likely artistic outlet.

Good with details and with a methodical approach, Maria nevertheless is someone who enjoys constant new challenges to maintain her interest. She is a methodical individual with attention to detail, but is inclined to leave tasks unfinished if her active mind alights on something of greater interest. Routine tasks that fail to challenge her intellect are at greatest risk, so Maria needs a job that offers variety.

Ambitious to improve her lot, Maria will constantly push forward to achieve something in her life, yet this ambition will be balanced by humanitarian ideals that will lead her to support causes that may demand self-sacrifice.

[The Arrow of the Planner: the numbers 1, 2 and 3] Although less interested in the detail, Maria is a well-organised individual who plans ahead. If she absorbs knowledge through study, she will achieve great success, quite possibly in an artistic field. The essence however of this combination is her desire to plan, and to organise herself to achieve her goals.

[The Arrow of Frustrations: lacking the numbers 4, 5 and 6] Maria finds it difficult to accept other people as they really are, and is constantly disillusioned with life. Once she accepts that others are only human, the frustrations will cease.

Comments based on Chinese Grid

Maria enjoys a positive and balanced approach to life and will be financially successful. If the Chinese version also contains 2 sevens, Maria is very fortunate.

Unless Maria also has in the Chinese version either the numbers 5 and 7, or the numbers 4 and 8, she will be hypersensitive and prone to stress-related problems.

In the absence (in the Chinese version) of the numbers 1 and 6, she will be good with money and details. She will be happier if the Chinese grid includes the numbers 5 and 7.

Maria is intelligent, and prepared to learn. Without the numbers 3, 5 and 7 in the Chinese version, Maria is likely to use her head at the expense of her heart, which can lead her to become something of a workaholic.

[The Arrow of Suspicion: Lacking the numbers 4, 5 and 6] Maria is a cynic who worries too much about the downside. She needs to recognise more of life's advantages.

[The Arrow of Apathy: Lacking the numbers 2, 6 and 7] Maria lacks the will to succeed. Somewhat indecisive, she will miss opportunities and avoid risk. Maria needs to recognise that life's chances must be grasped with both hands when the opportunity arises.

Heh, just a test i took online. quite accurate though hahaha for most of the stuff. go check it out!
Take Test

still rushing my ass for my projects............

wun b free frm it until another 5 more weeks...

*sigh*

newly taken pics haha

haha got "banned" from doing project at home by terry for today.

always had the bad habit of bring things back home to do all by myself end up tiring myself up n nt delegating enuff for others. lolz so after discussing abt the S.T.P for context m project today, terry told wendy n shaikha to go hm n complete while he n jere do goldlion and ann cont with my value chain analysis. =P i'm the onli one with nothing to do. terry somemore tell me i am not allowed to touch on anything related to the s.t.p especially on my own at home bwahahaha..

sian sia nw so free.
shall go parkway with folks to walk ard n makan haha...

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havent been blogging much lately cos i'm so damn busy with my projects. so i'll blog more when everything is done. which is like....5 weeks more. haha anyway i'm too tired to blog. too sad too. no time for personal life, so stressed, so busy, miss wilfred alot cos can hardly meet him cos i so damn busy......we're both missing each other like mad. -____-

somebody save me!!!!!!!!!!

nearly died of heart attack today. yest night stupid dad on the aircon. i switched it off when i go slp but it was too late. cos while i slp and breathe in the stupid air con air my chest so pain and tickled so much i coughed like mad. den.....my tonsils swell up. can feel it when u swallow saliva and feel that in your throat like got something stuck and not going down. -__- dad got guilty lah cos actually recovering liao end up cos he on air con den deteoriate. nxt mon wake up throat feels funny but ok lah got alot of phlegm but cough less.... but....got abit of blood trace in the phlegm..... *stress like fuck* hope no big deal lah....

anyway now i feel ok loh... dad avoid me when i reach home hahahaa think he guilty conscience. mama say he siam until one corner like snail.

went to sch at 11am in the morn did project and stayed till 10pm hahahaha terry sent all of us home and we (jere, me n terry) stopped by some eatery at jln masjrid (kemangan area) for dinner. they eat lah i watch cos oily food and chicken. *STARES AT GD FOOD* sian sia hahaha i can onli go hm eat mee sua....

ok, finally i can say this.

I AM REALLY ON THE ROAD TO RECOVERY!

kinda wondering why i'm saying this again since i said it in my previous entry couple of days ago?
think again on why i havent been bloggin since fri.

cos....

well...

things took a turn for the worse.

juz as i said i think i was recoverin on thursday, i coughed the whole damn night that day and didnt get any sleep at all and went to school for my final ppr. geez. my ppr was in 4pm in the AFTERNOON and imagine how terok i feel already by then. when i was on my way to school i felt so weak and when i'm in school i was breakin cold sweat all over, weak, shaking, tired.... unfocused. i felt as if i can juz faint anytime soon. juz before the ppr starts and i'm still sitting outside at the bench with YK, Jere, mike n terry they all, i told jere i felt damn tired cos nvr slp. he got worried and kept askin if i'm gonna b alrite or if i wan him to tell the teacher i not feeling well. i decided to cont with the ppr. things started spinning when i was at my seat and i kept coughin non stop. jere kept askin if i can tahan. ppr starts, i started scribbling. the ppr seems easy. i know what i want to write. the only DIFFICULTY... u cant believe this.... was actually to TRY to make my handwriting make sense. i can hardly hold the pen properly. strangely enough i finish the ppr very fast and was count downing to the time to get out of the lecture hall. tot i felt better and took a train dwn to queenstown to meet wilfred. been a week since i last met him and i missed him alot. halfway thro the ride i knew something is amiss. i'm gettin worse, when i met him at the mrt stn, i was unfocused and seeing his face, i felt as if i'm lookin at a stranger, almost not recognizing him. went up to his hse n lied on his bed for awhile but things didn't get better. in abt half n hr's time, i decided to head hm. i called up my mum and went straight to the doc with her the moment i reach kemangan mrt stn (she waiting there). since that night, doc say i got acute bronchitis and mild asmtha (cos throat infection became worse though recovering but am v shag cos no slp). but following those nights i'm STILL unable to slp ... so everynight onli until 5 am den i fell aslp..... this morn i slept at 5am too....woke up at 10.30am... i felt like sucha burden to my folks cos both worrying over me so much and i can't slp cos coughin and they refuse to slp either cos wan to take care of me... i've been drinking so much warm water and plain food til i'm so sick of it and i lost so much weight. i think shaikha will faint when she see me in sch tml. my jeans almost fell off my hips. geez.... but anyway, things r getting better for real this time and i'm recovering. aint coughin as much so hopefully i can get some decent slp tonite. wish me luck.

today's paper was fine. the only one which i thought was comfortable enough for me to complete except that i'm abit short on time and didn't managed to add in the last bit. simply means i didn't finish the ppr lah but i think it's not too jia lat. at the most lose a couple of marks. really brain dead man. still must study for tml's ppr. tml is last ppr but LIKE GOT ALOT OF THING TO MEMORISE SIAL......!!!!! O_O;;;

stupid YK nearly scared the heck out of me. first question in my test ppr, i was to list out 5 positioning strategies. so i list lah the attributes, product usage, etc then he come n tell me he wrote about differentiation and concentraction etc. nearly hav heart attack tot i write wrong answer then i realised that those things he wrote are segmentation strategies..!! oh boy... dat mean he lost 15 marks.

jia lat. whole ppr worth 50 marks!!!

anyway... now i'm kinda braindead and brain stuck hahahaha i realised my throat is getting pretty jia lat cos itch damn alot and i keep coughing. last night cant sleep sia!! keep thinking abt the stuff i studied.... and then it wun go away and then throat start to itch and i cough like mad till 4am! woke both my parents up and both are fretting over me. slept for 6 hours before i started revising my stuff again. had a headache so went n sleep for awhile.. when i in sch i so shag sia.. test havent even start somemore.... i bumped into mike who told me yk n jere n terry was nearby so i joined them. i feel weak like my hand will shake abit duno is cos i allergic to the medicine or is the medicine too strong or am i still too sick? damn it.

finally tomorrow can get to meet up with wilfred for alittle while.... saturday gotta stay home and do project and plan a stupid schedule (asked by terry) for our one week break... muz go back school do project.... damn sian sia..

juz now while takin test i keep checking the time but i realised my short sightedness getting worse man... can hardly read the time!! half the time i was guessing... jia lat.... duno now my degree shoot up until how much liao...

finally i feel like my health is recovering.
for the past one week i've been sick and switching on the fan alone is such torture. my body shivers while the bones get chilled. now i can on the fan full blast and feel cooling. cough is still there but at least the stupid itch in the throat and phlegm are gone.

been doing some random stuff lately. going up friendster and randomly write testimonials for ppl and juz now i was bored and so to kill time i send to all the guys in my list that has the age of 20 - 22 to ask them to do my survey and mailed all those we did for me the survey some amended questions to re-answer. randomly emailed some ppl whom i've either not mailed for ages or lost contact with. it'll b cool if any one replies.

1:39am.

boring night. as usual nothing good on tv, wilfred is asleep and sano is sad and i don't know how he is coping right now...
another 14 hours and 20 minutes before my test.

hope this test ppr will be easier. i think i'm gettin brain damage soon if i keep memorising stuff at this rate.

somehow wilfred mentioned something rather amusing to me. he say that the way i behave right know, unless guys/men are complete fools or they would've known that i'm attached. he's refering to my dad. hahaha we're wondering if my dad ever thought that i'm attached already? well we managed to keep him in the dark for the past two years or so.. mum is my accomplice.

finally took time off from my usual routine of visiting wilfred, and studying at home, i havent been seeing him for the past 3 days. at first he complained abt the routine and that i'm too sticky, now he's whining about missing me and hopes to see me soon. mad kid hahaha anyway i miss him more than he miss me normally so know it's like some sort of sweet revenge. kinda sick of studying. everyday study den go sch take test, feel so shag n lazy after the test still muz pull myself up in the evening to study for the next test and the same stuff goes on and on and on...

taking time off from wilfred and spending more time at home means more time to bond with my parents i realised what i've been missing. been out of the house alot lately and i hardly see my parents. but now that i'm sick and at home and havin tests, my folks are kanchiong over me and feeding me with food and drinks and looking after me. especially dad. lolz he seem very worried and keeps nagging at me to take the medicine or don't allow me to have cold drinks and when i keep coughing like mad he will come and pat my back till i fall back aslp. nice to have people pampering you haha dad is a big giant like i alwaiz described to wilfred. he may seem abit MCP or like big size, he is juz one big softie inside. hehe last time when i first started going to wilfred hse to stay, dad would alwaiz call me and ask me when i'm comin hm cos he miss me. wil was surprised to hear that from my dad. but well, that's juz my dad. now the habit is to call home everyday when i stay over at wil's hse. getting out of the routine and psychological need to alwaiz meet wilfred becomes less and i'm coping better with my life. guess its not very healthy sometimes to keep missing someone in a obsessive way hahaha now i'm happy to talk to him on the phone and have enough time for myself to do my own things. juz hope that the tests will be out of the way soon so that i can do more things without stressing so much. i hate it when my time gets eaten by things and i feel as if i'm caged up. cant go out after sch and cant go out before test either.

it's late. i'm heading to bed. cya

TODAYS PPR IS KILLER MAN.
so freakin difficult. for once i don't know if i'm gonna pass.
think................should be lah. onli i seriously doubt the type of grades i can get.
fuck man.

sometimes i wonder if anyone reads my blog hahaha
today is the third day for my tests....
very application based and frankly speaking, i have no idea how i'll fare.
hahaha
one and a half hour more before i leave the house. i am kinda bored right now.
nothing much to do online, no one ard to chat with and tv ain't got better shows but reruns.

for those of u guys out there that like to download stuff into ur handphones
u can check out this website. got some rather cool pictures.
hp pictures for download

my entries nowadays are getting shorter and shorter haha cant quite blog alot cos nothing in my mind.
i'm not really the kind that rambles on my thoughts and come up with plenty of philosopies to discuss about.

havent met wil for a couple of days already and probably cant meet him till friday when all the stupid tests ends...

haiz still a long way ahead.

after tests is project and submissions. why on earth did they make poly sucha fast paced place to study..
stressful man.

mum juz said bird flu spread into Japan already. shoot. haha jia lat liao this time.

coughed and sneezed and had sore throat yesterday, finally i decided to go see a doctor. has been sick since wednesday. as usual mum n dad brought me to the night clinic near parkway parade. it's called 81 family clinic where the doctors are two brothers. both sikhs, the younger brother is the more bubbly and humorous one. both fatfat hahaha but one thing about this clinic is they are very good and they often get long queues. the medicine they prescribe are often expensive but usually effective so that there's no need for you to return a second time. doc said i have throat infection. sorta say i shld've seen a doc when i sick for 3 days or it will worsen the infection *stick out tongue* hehehe gav me lotsa pills that was super strong cos after i ate them i felt weak and went home and slept all the way. am having my second test ppr later. brain overload man haha...

i was very very very down earlier on... when i juz got back til abt 7pm. i got back abt..... 4+ closing to 5. don't want to say why i'm sad but i was and although i was much refreshed after a bathe, mum probed and sorta made me feel even sadder cos she also was tellin me some probs we hav at hm then for a moment there i was overwhelmed with stress from all areas. my tests... my projects... my relationship... my family stuff.....

it was too much to bear.

worse thing was, i can't turn to wilfred for consolation. not at that moment for some reasons.

thankful for the fact that i haf sano ard me to cheer me on and talk to me at times when i am sad. i cried alot. so much that my head hurts and felt hot like as if it was gonna blow. now things cooled dwn. i studied finish wad i needed to... gd luck to me for tml.

i juz tot of a line. "being considerate to others is being incosiderate to urself."

true? mebbe 75%

Was havin fever yesterday. had been feeling ill since tuesday actually..... headaches then itchy throat... woke up on weds morning feeling weak and hav no appetite. tingly feelings running thro my back. i knew something's brewing inside. things bcame abit worse in sch... more headaches n tingly feeling and this time, back aches. dad was worried when i left the hse this morn.... i woke up with ultra dry throat. was happy that the teacher say my grp got the potential to write a v gd report. at least i'm proud of my grp members. we're laggin alittle but we'll pull through. jus gotta buck up. but now is a bad time to be sick. esp when tests are juz round the corner (nxt week) and there's the bird flu crap. temp taken three times at night at wil hse. he didn't let me go hm cos he say he wanna take care of me. gav me panadols and kept askin me to slp. banned frm studying for wednesday.

temp: 37.9 degrees, 38.0 degrees, 38.1 degrees.....

ok frm bad to worse. took two panadol cold relief sweat like heck and temp went dwn to 37.2 degrees.
slept thro the night with wil and sent him off to work i went back to the bed n slp but then i realised i was feeling the chills in my bones and i cant fall aslp. his mum used the key to open the rm door (i locked it earlier on) and came in to check my temp. she did dat twice and commented that i'm still hav fever. gav me one panadol n i went back to slp. that was about 7 plus in the morning. woke up at 8.30 and walked ard the hse.....still hav slight fever. went on to study and now, my temp is gone. PHEW. ok relax time over. back to studies.

took quite a number of pictures again today of my project group members. well this will make up of wad's gonna be the sweet memories of year 3.

^____^ got angry about the part where the stupid terry who went n delete a vid i took. i took a vid of him n wendy and i liked it cos v candid and cute. ann liked it too but the stupid terry go n delete it away. i'm NVR gonna let him touch my digicam EVER.

been studying... so tired now. really takes alot of self-discipline n motivation to go study accordingly to the schedule i done for myself n still put aside time to do my own stuff plus project stuff. tired man....

wilfred been abit like gonna fall sick lidat... today my throat hav been giving me trouble. it's itching nw and irritating. prolly MIGHT get a sore throat. hope not though. had a stupid lingering headache the whole afternoon...

i've actually been studying for the past... 6 hours? i'm nuts man.

terry told this joke. find it q funny so i decided to share. it's a story about marriage.

there's this young couple who knew each other for 4 years already and finally, they've decided to get married. one night before the day where they are to go and register their marriage, the guy started having second thoughts. he approached his dad and decided to confide in him.

"dad, i don't think i want to get married"
"how come son! you two known each other for so long already!"
"but dad, as u know i hav athelete's foot... wad if after we get married she can't stand this problem i hav and leaves me!?"

both troubled by the issue and pondered for several minutes.

suddenly the dad said, "son! i found a way to solve your problem! every night when you are about to go to sleep, put on socks so that it keeps the smell in and that'll do the trick!"

the son thought over it for awhile and decides that it's a gd idea and so he is ready to get married tml.
but on the other side of the story, the bride-to-be is also having second thoughts. she approached her mum n said.
"mum, i don't think i want to get married"
"aiyo ah ger....you two together so long already how come now lidat!?"
"but ma... every morning i wake up i got....bad breath... unless i brush my teeth...later he marry me already know i got bad breath how? what if he doesnt want me anymore!?"
mum thought of an idea and told the bride-to-be to keep her mouth shut n don't talk everyone morning until she brushed her teeth. daughter tot it was an gd idea n got ready to get married tml.

both got married and one year has passed and everything was going smoothly for the two of them and neither one had problems with the issues they were worried about. but one fine day, when the husband woke up first, to his horror both his socks went missing! they must've slipped off! he searched high and low for his socks, turning the rm inside out searching for the socks to no avail. unfortunately, his search stirred up his wife and so she said, "MY GOD WAD R U DOING!?"

the man looks at his wife and said, "MY GOD! U SWALLOWED MY SOCKS!"

moral of the story? lies/secrets cant be kept forever.

those who don't get the joke msg me. LOL. it's kinda lame actually.

whoo! took quite a number of funny pictures hahaha rather candid man.

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piang eh juz now take mrt back home realised there's some smudged blood prints on the seats. YUCKS!!!!! think some woman had her mens... urgh.... *chokeS*

i had a good weekend over at wilfred's place. in a way it's a place for me to getaway from my sch stress and i don't have to think much about school stuff there. wilfred have been very sweet and juz last night we had a very good and long talk. we were reflecting on how we first met and how he asked me to be stead with him and everything and what he feelings were then. we talked on the goods and of course, the bads too. then we talked about now. he feelings for me now are much better and much stronger and of a different level and as we talked about it i felt really great and good about our relationship. it definitely was an energy boost and morale boost. now i'm more motivated in life and also to do well for my upcoming mid semestral tests. must not disappoint my folks and wilfred who is so supportive and must not disappoint myself. we talked about the future and he was so excited about the part where he wondered how it'll b like when i get pregnant then he stuck his head to my stomach. LOL silly fellah. then he said stuff about telling the babies boy or ger about soccer! HORROR hahahahah then i chided him saying he's being silly cos he stuck his head at my stomach and prolly would onli hear it growl.

we woke up late this morning as at 6am he was supposed to wake up to go to camp for his ippt test but cos he usually don't havta wake up on sundays so he forgot to set his alarm and so both of us overslept. when i woke up i was so blur and then i shook him to ask him how come he nvr go work then he was like shit he never hear the alarm ring then i was like..... blurrily told him he didn't set his alarm. then while we continued lying on the bed like pigs and lazy to move, we were like 'how ah?' then finally we decided to get mc for him hahahaha case closed. we went alexandra hospital at about 11am. in the afternoon wilfred saw me being cooped up and noes i'm sad so he suggested we go to IKEA for hotdogs. i was happy and jumping about. nowadays i cant stand being indoors for too long. now he is very attentive to my needs w/o me even having to say what i need. ^^ so nice! then at night we discussed abt my projects and he was giving me some suggestions. he commented that it would be nice if he was in the same sch n same grp ask me. sch would've been much easier then. i guess so but i rather not cos if not we might quarrel alot cos of sch stuff.

we had KFC for dinner and he know i like kfc and keep giving me popcorn chicken hee!! cos he noe i like. bwahaha....gd weekend ne~! time to gambatte for the following week and study hard. wilfred wanted me to stay over one more night but i guess i cant. MORE CHANCES TO COME BY AND ME N WIL HAV PLENTY OF TIME WIF EACH OTHER FOR THE REST OF OUR LIVES....so i guess it's ok to wait awhile and sacrifice some time now. ^___^

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Taken from tootie's blog. hehe

"As a woman in this day and age, I am in a position to ask a man what he can do for me that I can't do for myself. I pay my own bills. I take care of my household without the help of any man...or woman for that matter.

I am in the position to ask, "What can you bring to the table?" The man looked at her. Clearly he thought that she was referring to money. She quickly corected his thought and stated, "I am not referring to money. I need something more.

I need a man who is striving for perfection in every aspect of life."

He sat back in his chair, folded his arms, and asked her to explain. She said "I am looking for someone who is striving for perfection mentally because I need conversation and mental stimulation. I don't need a simple-minded man."

"I am looking for someone who is striving for perfection spiritually because I don't need to be unequally yoked...believers mixed with unbelievers is a recipe for disaster."

"I need a man who is striving for perfection financially because I don't need a financial burden."

"I am looking for someone who is sensitive enough to understand what I go through as a woman, but strong enough to keep me grounded."

"I am looking for someone who I can respect. In order to be submissive, I must respect him. I cannot be submissive to a man who isn't taking care of his business. I have no problem being submissive...he just has to be worthy."

"God made woman to be a help mate for man. I can't help a man if he can't help himself."

When she finished her spill, she looked at him. He sat there with a puzzled look on his face. He said, "You are asking a lot."

"She replied, "I'm worth a lot."

life such an ass sometimes u noe? was happily thinking of something which i wanted to blog then i got interrupted by my mum talkin abt my dad which totally pisses me off and now!? i'm so angry it'll prolly take me and hour or two to get rid of all those steam. what she do? go back to bed n slp happily. fuck. yeah my dad hurt his back N I AM FREAKIN CONCERNED. i noe his fuckin leg aches. but i don't think doc hopping is a smart move either. crap. i'm juz gonna fuck care alrite? sometimes ppl think i go wil hse juz cos of him being my bf and r/s lovey dovey stuff. yeah but that's only half the reason. when i'm there, i don't hav to think abt sch nor do i hav to worry abt hm stuff. it gets pushed out of my mind till i return hm. sometimes i dun even wanna go hm. sch sux. hm prob sux even more. i hate to be financially tied dwn and i hate to be hav to worry abt things i cant control. i hate bills and i hate alot of stuff.

ok let's fuck care wads written on top and think abt happier stuff.
wad did i wan to blog about previously?
abt falling in love all over a gain in relationships.
i once told a friend of mine.
there are a couple of things that is impt in a r/s. honesty, ground rules (u better believe it) and communication. of cos other plus r stuff like understanding n patience n stuff.

honesty in wad sense?
in the sense of comin clean with everything u DID or intend to DO. don't wait til ur other party ask u then u own up. juz report lah! automatic abt wun kill u. do wrong thing oso say. and for those who ur bf/gf tries to come clean with u, LISTEN LAH! ppl willing to b honest, u hear the truth u cant handle it, u sulk. dun tell u oso sulk. hard to pls sia.

ground rules is wad? simple, saying wad you hope the other party would do in the r/s right frm the start. me n wil, we agreed since we first started dating back in 2001, we be totally honest with one another abt our actions and our feelings.

Communication is the most common sense n essential part in a r/s lah yah? u nid to TALK to one another, understand one another and sometimes juz chatting like gd frens wun kill. cold war is lame. ignoring one another for petty stuff is lame. being stubborn for both party and end up not willing to bow dwn to ur stupid pride is LAME.

ok dats abt it. and then i told my friend abt not takin things for granted. and also abt fallin in love in a r/s over n over again is NORMAL. sure there are of course up n downs in a r/s. sometimes feelings/passions fade alittle... it goes down but those who mistakes it for being 'no more feeling' is the world biggest fool because there are alwayz time for love to be rekindled. you juz gotta be patient. my fren gav up a gd guy juz cos of the mistake i juz mentioned. nw she's regretting it. everyone definitely hav their gd n bad pts, if u're forever gonna go compare him/her to others, i don't think u'll ever get married. the thing is to love the person totally, love their gd and accept their bad. u can help them change but if it's something dat cant be forced, well, juz learn to accept it.

last week n this week suddenly wilfred v loving. strangely he told me abt him being 'dian' (electrocuted) by me hahahaha stuff i did which touched him makin him love me more n stuff. well it has been 6 mths hahaha so it has been a long while. both of us have been more or less tied down by routines in our lives. me with sch n him with ns/work. if we start being lazy in our r/s. goner man. but we realised it long ago so we're still makin the effort to meet up n stuff. i'm lookin forward and hopin for the day when finally he is being accepted by my dad n it's no longer juz me go to his hse and he cant come mine but both of us being able to access each other's hse freely and with ease. haiz. alrite. i go rest.

had a mock war with wilfred hahahaha was pokin each other and then he wacked my chin. "THIS IS WAR!!!!" i roared and here goes for a near 10 min of struggling and countless attempts to wack each other's chin rolling up n down the bed. HEH den he had a counter attack by pinning me dwn n kiss me lah crap, lol but eventually he surrendered.

cooped up at home for hours haha before i finally cant stand it no more! i was even in the rm literally fallin aslp while he was on his soccer game for nearly 2 n a half hrs. i was in the comp rm with him lying half on the chair n half on the bed. shucks nw my knee is achin a lil. then i dragged wil out to IKEA for a walk ard n to breathe some fresh air. had ice cream!! we walked around and was lookin at wardrobes. HEE then we were discussing abt wad would be ideal for our home. ^^ lotsa nice nice furnitures ard. wil say he'll prolly wanna get everything frm ikea cos convenient n cheap. then we head back home soon cos his mum cooked dinner and if we returned late we're in for lotsa nagging. after eating we slacked around in the computer rm listening to music and playing ard with hp n stuff before going into the rm to huddle for the last hour cos i'm heading home soon. haiz haiz. owaz emo on the day when i hav to go back hm after staying with wil esp this week. stayed over for four days!! didn't really get to go out much cos he was tired and we were financially tied up too.

WHEE!!!!!!!! muz gambatte for sch n my r/s n family!!!! DEKIRUZO! *eye big big*

ok i reckon i shld blog since i havent blogged for two days.

it's so boring. right now i gotta find a way to entertain myself while the two boys (sano n wil) r stuck in the rm watching soccer. was pretty bored today actually. fetched wil frm work and before that i was stuck in his rm by myself. me n the tv. yes, hallmark chnnl and it's boring the shit out of me. i was stuck in the rm for one and a half hr. den i brushed up, wore a singlet and wil's oversize 3/4 pants n went out. caught a few ppl starin at me. guys mainly. duno if i too slack or like too boy or duno wad. i luv my nails. lol apparently everyone else who saw it likes it too. i even gav my fren karen and online lesson. i talk, she paint. LOL tues gotta paint shaikha's nail too. i'm not sure if it's just me or am i too slack? last year i definitely had more time to do my projects but i was totally stressed out. this year i had a GREAT grp, great members and i'm so relaxed. then again, it is relax or issit over confidence slack? i think it's more of the first one. i do see ourselves proceeding and lecturers confirmed to us abt it since they commented abt other classes havent even completed certain stuff. i went to anchor pt alone juz nw in the afternoon while wil was using the comp. bought packet noodles (mee pok) and a can of braised peanut, and spicy pork cubes. oh yes, marigold grape pudding. HEH. they've got the peter pan magnet cards. OOO luv the boy hahahha but the grape flavoured one dun haf the boy!!! they onli got the picture of wendy n the boy one is in the longan flavour!!! so i swopped them. hahahahahahha opps? guess no one caught me. anyway who cares abt the card as long as i paid for the pudding right? wilfred said i look prettier!!! bwahahaha. he has bcome more loving. strange hahahaha yest bryan n meimei came over to his hse. meimei wanted to use the gym. ok i juz heard the boys shout GOAL! wil was like "oh my god goal." then came sano's voice "GOAL!!!!" *roll eyes* boys.

and oh yes as i was saying, meimei wanted to use the gym so me n bryan wil juz hung out in the gym n talk cock. after awhile, we went out to the poolside to chat. meimei n bryan juz cant stop bickering haahhaha owaz bickering non stop. wil dl the ringtone of the song found in the sony ericsson commercial where u hav a girl singing in japanese? yeah dat one and it's really nice n cute. bryan likes it alot too. while we were chatting over at the poolside i was noticing some japanese lil children running around and playing. one lil boy and two lil girls. they are all of the same sizes! hahahaha reaaaaaally adorable and japanese kids are so much smaller in size compared to singaporean kids of the same age. the boy is v cute haha his action all damn cartoon esp after .....alrite i juz heard a combined ARGHHHHH comin frm the rm. no idea wads dat supposed to mean. yah i was saying, the boy was v cute esp when he dropped the hp on the flr accidentally. after he dropped it he picked it back up and listened to it then plop! he sat on the ground inspecting it. a jap lil girl ran along and he stopped her n they were chatting some stuff and the girl's reaction was v cute too. heh. i'm gonna stay over at wil's hse for another two more days. whee! ok i'll go grab some pudding nw. ^^

CNY photos - try to find urself. it's mingled up -___-;;

I had a great weekend and now it's time to buck up for my studies n projects ^^

things are going find and the outing on saturday for twit n coolie was a success i would say!! took quite a number of pics but haha this time round i can't quite show all of you the pics. only those who went gets it. ~_~ paiseh.

thursday after my CNY visiting over at my aunt's place n went on down to meet up wif wilfred at night. he wanted me to stay over but i hear my dad voice over the phone like so sad lidat so i decided not to. (anyway i'll be stayin over frm fri til sun) haha

wilfred actually wanted to go out with his friends on saturday night. pubbin till quite late but then he changed his mind on friday and told me he wanted to spend more time with me ^^ so happy. we went n watch peter pan dat day and the movie was good!!! the 'peter pan' is very charming. i was tellin wil how handsome the boy would become next time when he grows up. very charming smile and attractive eyes. ^^ wendy was alittle simple hahaha but the cast is very cute and hilarious. oh yes i forgot to mention, hahah while we were queuing up for the tickets we bumped into iman at cine too hahaha and she was about to watch the school of rocks. i bought a new skirt dat day! but drats is it when i found out i don't have something decent to match with it hahaha shall go shop for something to match it.

alright comp is making siren noises again. shall do this entry quick and off the comp.

sat we had our outing as planned and surprise surprise was it!! sabrina (twit) actually came!!! and although ppl like kero didn't come and james too but others unexpected ppl like wendy came so we have about 13 ppl turning up for the outing!!! really cool. had lunch over at BK and then karaoke-ed at cuppage there. ^^ all was goood. me, bryan, meimei went o'er to wil hse to chill out till quite late before the two kids went back home.

sunday was a day to slaaaaaaaaack! alrite finish. siren is driving mum nuts.

WISHING YOU ALL A HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!!

am still at home now hahaha wilfred already visited two places!! cos my family only visit all together one shot at my uncle's house so we don't usually set off very early. in fact if you're too early you'll end up being very bored and alone in the house hahahaa alritey! will update you guys on wad happens later! cyaaaaaa have fun!!

*bounces off*

you guys definitely should check this website out! it's so cute n cool!
note: pictures are done in PIXELS. dot by dot! cool!!!

::Army of Trolls::

this are some of the gif files i downloaded from the webbie. damn cute hahahaha



And here's another very outstanding website.

this is the file i downloaded from here. there are lots more others which i downloaded lah but this is one of the latest work. haha nice!

Yume's Studio



i think i added this pic before but i think it's v cool so i decided to show it again.



Pixel Museum

just got home from muh uncle's hse. was havin reunion dinner.

uncle = bryan's father

haha

my aunts are there too... food wasn't too bad haha alot of food instead. only thing not so nice perhaps is, not much of a soup lah all they keep doing is add water =____=;; lolz i'm damn tired now.. can't wait to go to bed n hug my dear bolster. tml is another day and ANG POWS HERE I COME!!!! heheheh can wear the new mango top i bought! oh yes i didn't say. yest me n mum went shopping. bought 3 tops. two from ocean pacific, one singlet and one t-shirt. i love the t-shirt man! hahaha like the design. den after that bought one more off shoulder top from mango. SALE lah lolz muz be smart.

kero called me in the afternoon. he is prolly going for the outing we're havin at orchard this sat. i'm still trying to get bryan to go. i miss wilfred. haha not much people seems to be online today. so boring. c how la~ if got take new pictures i'll upload them! ^^

*SLAM SLAM CPU*

SHUT UP YOU STUPID MACHINE N STOP MAKIN SIREN NOISES!!!!!!!

ARGHHHHHHHH!!!!!

*goes crazy*

*plucks out a few chunk of hair*

WHEE BUM. lolz!!

this~~~~~ the season to be jolly falalalala~~~ lalalala~~~~~!

good day today. nope! no special encounters no special occasion. JUZ PLAIN GOOD MOOD! weeee

been ages since i behaved this way! am gonna go out of da hse! n shop for comics!!!! hahahahaha am gonna stop letting myself get controlled by those HORRID HORRID booby negative thinking! YESH got riiiiiid of them all! *kill kill bad thoughts*

instead of crouching in my chair and missing wilfred and hav all sorts of chest tighening icky feeling i'm bubbly and wan to go out n jumpin ard the hse, makin funny faces at the mirror! cool. hehehehehe

sometimes...... i like jeremy cos he is v drama n funny. but sometimes. i cant help but hate the things he say. very hurting. cos of that sharp mouth he has, if he wants to be sacarstic his tongue can be as wicked and sharp as a blade. sometimes cos i havent totally gotten over some stuff in the pasts that will lead me into paranoia.... or stuff... and of course i do not wish to be reminded of it nor do i like people to alwayz be negative about my relationship..... but sometimes..... wad jere says does hurt alot. first day of school i came back feeling fine. feeling good. was pretty ok with my r/s though still trying to adapt to comin back to sch and facin the stress of projects then something jere said led me into becoming a emo and paranoid freak. it took me so long to calm back down. today, he did it again. but thank goodness, i finally got over it and decided not to let it affect me. wil cares abt it and dat's all that matters. he is pretty nice to call me today n stuff to chat with me and last night he was being very sweet. all's well.

i won't be able to meet up with him till friday! argh haha... cos of CNY.
i met jaime in school today.

well we stayed back (my grp) after school today to discuss about our projects. i'm still waiting for shaikha to come online. haiz dat stupid girl. my back is aching argh..... ok i'll stop here for today. although i juz hung up with wilfred a few minutes ago, i'm missing him already hahahaha cya guys.

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stomach ache. RAR RAR.

ok i had a pretty bad start for this week... and yesterday as in saturday, and i was uneasy all the while even though i'm staying over at wilfred's place. he was behaving strangely. like.... cold. or something near there. like affectionate yet distant. hm anyway thank god things turned back normal today. after we went down to choa chu kang, his old house area, and went LOT1 to walk ard... visited his old hse.... bumped into sano n sano's dad.... ate at ntuc foodfare etc... he was more bubbly and became more like the wilfred i'm used to and comfortable with. i had a great time with him while we returned home. it felt great. while we were at his old house, the floor is wickedly dirty!!!!!! we both had extremely dirty feet.

Dirty Feet Pics

p.s look out for the pic with me n wil sitting on the flr n u can see our BLACK feet.

terrible huh! hahaha

yesterday, Terry was baptised. quite cool watching all these but i didn't expect there to be a session.. u know the father talking n stuff... haiz. free thinker me. but then out of respect, i juz clapped along n listened along. -___-;;;

tml n wed got lecture. besides that i pretty much have the whole week off from sch. wednesday gonna go hav reunion dinner over at bryan's hse. hope everything goes well. thursday go "bai nian", meaning visiting. mum bought me this new top which.... i duno whether to like it or hate it hahahaha.... like nice yet very ah mah. jia lat. giv me ur comments pls.

here goes


and did i say earlier on that wil bought a new bed post n comp shelve? well here r the pics i took of them yesterday nite.

COMP SHELVE


BED POST


okie dokie, that's all for today. sch sux lol too bad. gotta return to sch tml. haiz haiz. nitez all

alritey got the presents frm japan!!!

note: i hav phobia for human-form dolls.

and i've gotten TWO frm my friend in japan!!!! the idea is sweet and the dolls are nice.. one boy one girl... but i'm keeping them in the plastic bag first.. cos human form dolls gives me the chills.. but i'm v grateful for the present and she even wrote a short letter for me!! ^^

DOLLS
PACKAGE
LETTER

suddenly........wilfred decides to french me. Wad The Heck!?

lol epitomy of randomness.

juz got home not long ago. was out with terry and jeremy for supper. we sorta discussed about this earlier on this afternoon in school but end up sureen can't make it and cos me, terry n jere live nearby, going all the way to hougang to get shaikha was abit troublesome so we tot we could arrange another day for dat. todae, it's just hanging out in the neighbourhood. terry msged me askin me if it's ok to come pick me up at about 10 plus. i asked my mum lolz so my mum raised the topic to my dad and i pretend as if i duno wads going on. den i turned back armchair to an angle where my dad cant see me (chair back facing him) and signalled to my mum the "ok" hand sign. she grinned. HEHz. mission impossible made possible!

i was on the phone with wilfred till about 9:45pm. then we hung up. i had a very nice conversation with him. i left to go downstairs to meet terry soon after that. we drove off to tampines, safra there to pick jere up. terry wear until v slack sia hahahaha singlet n pants. like uncle lidat. actually i oso quite slack lah lolz t-shirt and pants oso.... hahaha all oversized one. den while on the road i was chattin with terry about some stuff which i tot i'll skip. earlier in the afternoon i wanted to chat with him abt some of my probs. den i didn't so i tot no nid liao. end up tonite had the chance hahaha and he asked me abt it. so we chatted about my probs for awhile. den he was asking me some questions and all.... somehow i felt better answering him. i'm sure of my answers and i don't feel paranoid about it. no doubt i am nervous in some way or another. but that chat led me to know that i really do appreciate and treasure the relationship i have with wilfred.

when we went in and looked for jeremy, me n terry discussed a lil` about our projects. i learnt some new stuff from him. he is a very resourceful and capable guy.

when jeremy was done with his bowling, we left to have supper at kim's. we had $8 worth of hokkien mee hahaha and terry is fried pork lard addict man! lolz took alot of pork lard. tsk tsk altho i had my fair share of eating it hahahahaha

we chatted about jere's prob, mine, terry..... stuff.. about wad kinda woman suits terry as a wife... jere's r/s problems.. our perceptions in life..... and soon, it was twelve plus so we decided to head back home. hahahaha it was a good trip afterall and i really enjoyed myself although it was just a very simple trip.

Maybe tonite (11pm+) i'll be going for supper with jere, terry, shai n sureen. see how. lolz projects for year three is tough man.... after attending lectures i feel like dying hahahaha but luckily i'm not as stressed out like last year. although i dread the projects cos it's even tougher than last year becos i hav gd team members i'm not too stressed out abt it. hopefully we'll do fine in it.

i haven't done CNY (chinese new year) shopping sia. haha cant find any nice tops yet. dun wan to spend unecessarily juz cos it's CNY. i'll only pick something if i like it alot. i bought new lipstick hahaha keeps callin it lip plumpy hahaha wanted to put it on wilfred even. den got a new bluish eye shadow frm esprit. now i think if i ever see esprit havin that 50% discount on their products again esp eye shadows, i'll definitely b there to scoop the deal. lol cos normal prices r juz too expensive for ME. cos I DUN LIKE TO SHOP. and the stupid thing is so freakin expensive @ normal price.

i'm nw count downing to the time wilfred can leave his camp till the time i can call him to chat. i'm missing him already. haiz shucks. i forgot to buy calling card for mel teo yet. opps? i think she's probably boiling and wanting to kill me already. a japan online friend of mine sent me something again. haven't received it yet. i think i better go shop for something to send her too. paiseh receiving her gifts all the time hahahaha

i just submitted my report n log bk and everything else that needs to be submitted today.
(fyi: deadline is actually nxt mon, 12th jan. hahaha)

okok fine i'm kiasu. lol everyone else is still rushing their report but jere n mike n yk they all are pretty much done already.
shaikha seems pretty stressed out. hope everything turns out fine for the rest of us.

i brought bbq pork to sch todae and wanted to share with my frens
but guess i end up forgetting about it hahaha so i'll share it with wilfred later.
dad keeps being buggy about me getting new year clothes altho i noe he's just doting on me.
keeps offering me money to go buy new year clothes but i dun c the nid for it
so i keep delaying it hahahaha dun wan to waste his money.
i'm gonna go get some new cosmetics tho lolz
sick of my eyeshadow colour which i've been using for damn long already.
(cos i onli have ONE colour) hahaha....

many things happened this week and it was fun actually.
most of the same ol' ppl came for lectures everyday so we get to go out for lunch n hang out together quite abit
and surprisingly, both mike n jere turned up for most of the lectures!! hahahah i even got a ride to sch by terry along with jere.
nice car hehe. i get teased very often by the stupid terry abt some pvt joke we had last time -___-
and nw it has been a year and he is still teasing me abt it and it has manifested into yk n pat n jere joining in and teasing me.
*slaps head*

had a few tots running thro my mind previously. jotted them dwn in a word doc so dat i could refer back and reflect next time.
mebbe i'll post them up sometime ltr. projects given to us this sem is mad. mad mad mad and no other words to describe it.
very tough hahaha but ok lah i hav terry in my grp this year so not so stressed. he is v resourceful and a thinker.
his sem is a reallie fast sem. submission deadlines are in march! and soon, april and i'm a poly grad. time flies huh?
soon it's gonna be 3 years in poly and i'm off to thinking abt wad to do next for my future.

ok guess i'll stop here for now and let wilfred use the comp. i'm trying to be stronger each day and be less dependent on him
as in, even if he's not ard me physically, i shldn't owaz be so paranoid. i must be strong.
jere said something todae. wilfred doesn't deserve me. ~_~ but mike told him to shut up lol anyway dat's wad he thinks.
then he said another thing tho. so long as i'm happy it's fine.

just found this pic from the pucca website hahaha tot it was kinda cute.



BUT!

this is definitely my favourite!!!! haahhah so damn cute. three blind mice!

alritey. my sims r v horny lol cos nw, they have 5 kids. 3 girls and two boys.

SIM CHILDRED N DAD

alrite. school was crappy as usual but i like my timetable hahaha can go home early. latest class only ends at four at the most. sucky part is how fast paced this year's curriculum is and our projects are due on march!!!!!! can u believe it? i have like....... 4 or 5 projects!?!? and lecturers juz luv makin us feel sick by tellin us abt the projects all at once in the first week....

i'm done with my sip report. most of my classmates are trying to rush thro n finish it.

but strange enough this sem, me n my classmates and gd ol' frens seem closer than ever and i enjoyed the times spent together going to lectures together and hav lunch together. and as usual, i have alot of jesting and been made fun of plenty of times by stupid terry n jeremy and now even the stupid yk is joining in. -____-

hm.. i've been enjoyin the conversations i have with wilfred nowadays. we spend less time together because of his work and my school but then again we manage to find time to talk for at least one hour on the phone everyday and it has been really enjoyable talking with him haha mad convos we had. alrite. i'll go rest n prepare some notes.

oh yes, brought mum to singtel shop to look at the hp i like.... my SGH-E700A!!!! lolz

*parkway got ya kun!!!!!* (drools)

i probably din realise till yesterday on how much i sigh.

i sigh alot.

every like couple of minutes later i start sighing. was on the phone with jeremy helping out with his report. then i kept sighing and jeremy was like "why u sigh! stop sighing" lolz guess that was when i started realising dat i sigh an awful lot.

so boring.

boring!!!!!

sitting here doin nothing. waiting for time to pass till it's right for me to go out n fetch wilfred. missing him. damn bored at home. not that i rather have classes or what..... so little people online for me to chat with.

haiz.

i'm probably the online one cant view my own blog. stupid shit errors.

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today is the start of a new semester. last actually. for my final year in poly.
don't know what i'll end up doing when i graduate. if i hav the cash, maybe do uni?
but currently, i don't have the cash.

i'm missing wilfred as usual.
how to describe today? pretty fun meeting up with all classmates of course. took the trip to sch in a bus with jeremy and terry and talked all the way. then we alighted and met up with yk as he is walkin dwn frm his blk and 4 of us walked to sch. saw lotsa new and old faces and bet those freshies and yr 2 would be starin at all the year three(s) that finally returned hahahaha kinda feels weird being in year three now. so fast and 2 n a half year hath passed.

lotsa things happened within this few years of my life.
alot.

friends that i've made and friends that i've seen dat came and go.
my relationship and what have been through was amazing too.
all the new experiences.. the new faces.. new places..
introduction to a new chapter of my life.
family stuff.
school stuff.

new year resolutions?
never made any.
don't intend to anyhow.
just live my life and hopefully, the way i want to.

if things can move smoothly for you, i'm grateful enough.
this sem, it was fun chatting up with shai n jere n terry sitting next to me in the same ol' lecture hall.
as usual, listening to the lecturers crapping.
luckily we had vincent ng as our tutor instead of the dreaded boh tye joon or however u spell his name.
he's even using that ugly pencil case. bet he stole it frm his kid.

then after lec we continued chilling out and catching up at the design sch canteen. really had fun.
chatted alot and also, discussed about regrouping n stuff.
i managed to get terry into my group this year.
that is one very cool news. glad he agreed.

this year's subject seems really tough and a whole new subject.
jeremy seems v enthu haha but i hope that enthu stays. i'm happy with my current grp with terry n jere n shai with me. all the old friends and ppl whom i'm v comfortable working with. i'll be less stressed out and happier. final year. let it be something spectacular and memorable.

jeremy seriously SLIMMED DOWN a whole damn lot and i seriously mean a whole damn lot. and of cos i get many comments frm shai n others like huisan n all saying that i slimmed dwn too. shai keeps saying that i became smaller. lolz hope my breast dun get smaller though hahahaha i just want to be happy.

i want things to go well and i want my love with wil to stay strong as ever. peace to 2004 and gd luck to all yeah? *smiles*

HAPPY NEW YEAR FOR 2004 EVERYONE!!!!!!!!!!

wishin u all, all the best in wadever you do for the year 2004 and GOOD LUCK, GOOD DAY! BE HAPPY! *muackz muackz*

tomorrow! and it'll be a whole new year!!! haha after going through so much it's finally, 2004 is coming but of cos, from now on it only means increasing age lolz

not sure how i'll celebrate it though. mebbe not even celebrating. juz a simple day with wilfred or something. stupid school starts on the 5th. gave us only one week break after 6 months of sickening student attachment. how unsympathetic.

i'll be staying over with wil though from todae onward till saturday.

mum by chance happened to pass by a flea market with a lady selling second hand handphones on the floor. one hp so happens to catch her attention. it looked nice and unique. she squats down and picks it up. "how much is this hp"

"$510"

mum nearly died of shock. haha she thought it was very expensive. know which hp she picked up? SGH-E700A. LOL $510 and that would be considered cheap! but then again, i dun dare to trust such roadside stalls. seems too good a deal.

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i've been rather confused these few days...
over wad i duno.
ultra sensitive feeling something is wrong yet cant pinpoint wad it is.
mebbe i'm bored of the routine....
terribly sickened abt it.
yeah, routine.

cried in the bus back home. felt so wrong. nothing happened. we didn't quarrel. but i became emotional. i duno why.... past memories... hurts.... pain... fear.. they all came back to me at once.. i hate this feeling....

it's time to pick up bits and pieces again. i tend to break apart easily...
too easily.

i alternate between being very strong and dependable,
to becoming very weak and vulnerable.

without him in my life,
life seems to be in some sort of a standstill..
nothing mattered anymore....
life becomes dull.

forgot the feeling of being single.
now i fear that feeling.
i want to stay with him. always.

the thing is i'm prolly over over sensitive cos i KNOW wilfred is damn tired after a hard day's work. i KNOW he sayang me alot cos of his efforts and he is already treating me the best he could...

i'm juz too weak.
emotionally weak.
i cried in the bus.. so random
i cried in mrt several times before even with dennis next to me. no one notices.
when i bow dwn, i'm crying. cos when i slp, i tilt my head backwards instead.

nevermind. i can beat this. when there's a will there's a way. my patience will tell and i will nt bow dwn to challenges.

wil locked me out of his bedrm earlier on. he fell aslp inside and accidentally locked the door. i knocked like mad, called his hp n everything bt he juz slept like a dead log. i had to ask his dad to open the door for me. then when i got in, he got up and looked at me blurry eyed. den pouted when i chided him. -____- like small boi. so cute.

i'm so damn bored. no one seems to be alive and online and i keep hearing strange noises frm upstairs. those stupid indians. duno wad the heck they doing. i am no racist, but i sure do hate the neighbours i hav upstairs. everyone hates them. inconsiderate idiots.

woke up at 10pm and hav been procrastinating for the last two hours and 46 minutes.. shits.

waiting for wilfred to be free to call him cos i dun wan to disturb him while he work. speakers aint working. everything is so quiet and the only thing i could hear is just the sound of my keyboard.... this is bad...

my stupid lips juz cracked and it's so damn painful..... *whines* i applied lotsa lip balm... hope it helps.... geez.. can still taste the blood in my mouth.

i juz changed the bg of me n wilfred's blog... forgot the password so i took the trouble to redo the whole site. created a new blog and RE-posted ALL the past entries according to time and date. tiring man but it was worth the trouble. i changed the address too. for those who actually reads it last time, you can go check out the bg. it's v cute.

love haven

missed out one thing to mention. currently am looking for handphones to upgrade to. guess which phone i'm aiming? i must be out of my mind anyway.

samsung (SGH-E700A)

I must be so out of my mind but the design of this stupid hp captured my attention leaving me mesmerized. damn. it's totally gonna burn out my savings.

the cost of the hp without line is $800 over dollars but if i choose upgrade my singtel line in exchange with this phone and throw in my ericsson phone for trade in, it'll cost $728.

STILL, it's damn expensive nevertheless.

haiz. i do hav the cash but am i willing to part with it? tough qns.... argh..
this phone is so high in demand, it's sold out. can u believe it? i actually had to reserve one. i did of cos but if times comes along i decide nt to buy i can choose to reject the reservation. haiz. better discuss it with mum.

who willing to sponsor me pls step forward. lolz

p.s. if you guys hav any gd or bad comments abt the functionality of this hp, pls do. either leave a msg below this entry or in one of the shout/tag box.

something just doesn't seem right. my sixth sense is very keen however, it doesn't always go straight to the answer. it'll just let me be aware that something ain't right and leave the rest for myself to go figure. it's v frustrating, really. wasn't ease at heart since the whole afternoon. something just doesn't seem right. he seemed distracted. perhaps he's tired. or wad. i don't know. but i dun like what i was feeling. i became a worry freak and he just kept on consoling me. what is wrong with me?

sigh.

now i'm alone at home. outside it's getting dark and wilfred is not with me. he went to meet up with a friend to collect something. been a long while since i've been left alone at such hours. i'm either at work or with wilfred. mebbe that's wads making me feel so edgy. i dun like leaving wilfred at such early hours.

nw i'm stuck at home with no one online and a tv stuck with boring channels. damn. guess wad? my speakers cant work. gotta get new ones cos the plug aint rite for the current monitor. how sux.

YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY FINALLY GOT MY NEW COMPY MONITOR YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY!!

*bounce bounce about*

YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY!!!!!!!

hehehehehehhehehe went dwn to simlim and finally got my new monitor after so many months wahaha.. $218. philips brand hehehehe wilfred choose one. lookie nice nice. ok i go haf lunchie. u guys will be seeing me online ALOT from nw one bwahahahaha free frm attachment too!!!!!!

pictures uploaded!!!!

u guys can check it out on the digicam pics and digicam pics 2 links.

hihi i'm backie again~! since hong say muz blog more so i shall try to blog more hahaha hav some free time on hand and wil's bro aint in the rm i can use the compy!!! whee.... HEHEHEHE. took lotsa pics yesterday and ate DAMN ALOT of sushi (u guys can check it out frm the link on the right that says "digicam pics") but of cos, the pics dun run in order haha so u gotta look one by one to noe which one is new. aint muh fault. it's the stupid programme.

i was at work yesterday actually but i spent christmas with my colleague hahahaha so we had sushi, ordered alot and made alot of joke out of it cos we literally emptied the trays at the sushi stall and needed more so the auntie had to make more on the spot to catch up with us. LOL spent a total of... $30.45~~!!! imagine how much sushi we ate! juz me, two other colleagues of mine and wilfred hahahaha they were staring at how i managed to eat so much wasabi. i'm a wasabi eating freak. i put alot alot alot and alot of wasabi on my sushis hahahaha..!

we were so bored at work, we took turn to go out n shop ard even went to the phone shop hahahaha cos we wanted to change phone. my dad gav me $500 to get a new monitor but i'll prolly spend less than half of it. the rest either i return him or i put in the bank. wil keep askin me to kapok the cash hahaha siao. hahahah altho my mum oso ask me to kapok cos the money is safer in my hands than that of my dad cos he'll anyhow spend on drinks etc.

i had off day of christmas eve so me n wilfred went out on a date. bumped into 3 ppl~! one i duno is who hahaha met him last on the train. wil's fren..~
then i bumped into emiri first down the pathway of lucky plaza. she was with some guy heading dwn to watch a movie. doubt she could get a gd seat tho cos it's pretty late already. den while we walked back dwn and was somewhere outside um... that area which is slightly after swensen, we bumped into alex!! haha he dress up until so funky. make him look younger altho he already 25?? he's a hairstylist (apprentice?) i forgot which hahaha.. wad's impt, is he said i lost weight!!! bwahahahah... ^ ^

i bot this nice pair of earring too!! sano n iman shld know which. remember that dangling one with the beads which u were saying that they were plastic? sorry babe couldn't resist temptations hahaha so i bought it!

oh yes then me n wil walked ard and for dinner we had it at pastamania in cineleisure. while we ate, we had people performing dwnstairs in the basement, singing christmas carols. they had v gd voice! haha when we were done eating we sat infrnt of those ppl and listened to them sing. when they finished i tricked wilfred into cheers. cos there's a florist inside bwahahahha so he had to buy me some roses.

too bad i couldn't join bryan they all for buffet at night. couldn't bring wil along so too bad. hahaa am lookin forward to spending chinese new year with them. i like family gatherings. can take lotsa pics.

shucks been so long since i last blogged. sorry ppl... monitor STILL dwn and havent' got the time cos i'm still working...

i rebonded my hair again hahahaha and after that i went on out with fukai and iman and sano! but fukai soon left so me n sano n iman went ard taking photos! takashimaya's tree is HUGE! like 4 storeys high up! nicely litted too!

hmm.. finishing attachment pretty soon.. got very well with my colleagues and we're like one big family and it's kinda that for me to leave actually cos i'll miss working with them alot.. all the fun and chats.. but the long hours discourages me to continue working there as a part-time... i drew lotsa christmas cards this year and gonna send to lotsa ppl~ hehehehehe fun~!

.....................

ok. FUCKING DEVASTATING NEWS. DAMN SAD DAMN PISSED N HAV BEEN CRYING FOR ... 10 MINUTES. wilfred's dad fuckin threw away the ashtray made by me during my secondary school years and given to wilfred as a present signifiying our first annivasary and also his bdae in yr 2001.......WTF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

fuckin sad. fuck. fuckin all melvin's fault for takin it to his rm. fuck.

ok no mood animore. cya

yo guys! uploaded lotsa pics into my digicam page! got loads of candid pictures taken of me n my colleagues n of cos wilfred plus 3 cute pictures of my supervisor's ultra cute son!!!! take a look here!

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gd luck to those who took JLPT yeah~
todae is muh 2nd year 1st mth anni hahahaha two more days and it's wilfred's bdae! i bot a t-shirt for him with the same design for myself too~ hahahaha couple clothing haha then i went n buy stamps.
expensive siaaaal!

cos i wanted to send a faye wong cd o'er to australia to a fren of mine basket the stamp $4.30 sia.. ! madnesss!

then i bought other stamps for aust n KL to send greeting cards.. haiz expensive.. wallet losing blood.

mel teo called me early in the mornin at 9am while i was slpin halfway basket lolz so blurs when i woke up. i tot wilfred.
then we chatted for o'er an hour talk alot n crapped alot hahahha it's fun chattin with her and since she say her dad bot her his v old edition of faye wong cd i told her i'll get her the new one and she was protesting o'er it saying she'll mail it back if i do buy it oh well wad the heck hahaha i bot it aniway n i dun believe she'll bear to mail it back to me LOL. hav fun checkin out the pics! buaaaai

hm...
not much thing to blog lately.
except i'm real tired.
haiz
can't wait till my next off day comes along.
and that will be me n wil's annivasary~ whee...
and thursday is wilfred's birthday~ he's turning 19! (finally..)
i intend to get him a t-shirt and i alreadi bot him a card but i haven't shown it to him yet of cos...

ok. i realli can't think of anithing to blog except to rest. i'll blog some other day when i'm more free.
i nid a new monitor man. sux.

i'm plain confused, lost, and very afraid of the future. afraid of what's ahead of me.

what if wil goes overseas to study?
questions flooded my mind.
will he lose affection for me?
we will drift apart?
the loneliness will be so hard to bear.

it's not just for 2 years.
for the complete studies? to get his diploma n degree it'll take up to 5 gruelling years! 5 years!
i can't jus wait in SG for 5 years. i can't and i don't want.

how? what could i do?

study overseas with him?
nope.
finacially unable to do so.

mum told me to let him take the opportunity to level himself up.
true. it's a gd chance.
but i'll be old by then.
i dun like late marriages.
argh
i want to go to a uni. i wan to level up myself.
i dun hav the money
my plans hav to be put on hold.
mum told me to slow dwn.
for him to catch up
there's no way my dad will accept him.
at least not w/o qualifications.

what can i do?

his friend gav a suggestion.
work overseas.
go to where he is at.
i would love to.
but i've never been out of SG.
getting work permit
working in a place i don't call my home
leaving my friends
and my family
my dad
my mum
behind
for.... 5 years? mebbe less mebbe more....?
there are options.
but too tough an option to choose from.

my mind is in a whirl.
i'm v confused and sad and all sorts of things.
i feel sucky inside.
i'm just a simple girl who hate big decisions.
i hate it when my familar environment feels threathened.

i don't know what to choose from.
i want to be with him..
somebody help.... argh.....
my mum once told me.. last nite i guess..
if i were to tag along with wil to aust
perhaps to study
my dad will cry like mad literally...
i've never left his side.
i know he love me alot. that's wad makes it so hard.